Post Secret

I am bored/sick of 

*always moving.

*eating- hunger is just an annoyance.

*roommates.

*bodyaches- like serious, can I please learn to be a little more graceful?

etc

I want stability. please? 

GEnuINe.

Life tends to be complicated in the present and always nice in the past. 

SO I am dealing with it one step at a time. Maybe lemons aren't always made just into lemonade but into other things as well. There is more than one option.

Goals:

1] Work out!

2] Study waaaayyyyy more!

3] BUDGET!

4] Read 2-3 pages daily!

5] Do things for myself without need of accompaniment!

6] Work Hard to get what I WANT.

7] Find an easy way to go to bed without losing my sanity over what is left undone.

"Oh, friends please excuse me, I'll put it loosely. I'm sick and tired of sitting down.." - The Rocket Summer

I am doing this for me now.

Maintenant, Je ferrais cetpour moi!

A Blonde Changes

My last blonde picture, maybe, for awhile.

The Beginning of November...

I thought November would be better. It had to be better than this last week of October.

It is November 4th. This month has already gone off to a rocky start. 

I have decided to stop waiting around, I am doing the right things so I might as well LIVE MY LIFE while I do that.

Today, I had my French Presentation. I wonder what my grade will be...

I brought crepes!

I love Christopher Anderson.

that is a fact.

Sometimes things are crazy, and I am too intense and i think he isn't.. etc.. but it works out, it always does. I can't believe we have been going out for 7 weeks tomorrow! I LOVE the NUMBER SEV777EN!!!!!!

I am going home for Thanksgiving. Therefore I am going to Granada Hills, and the BEACH! I seriously love the beach, I miss that gorgeous Californian sun. I know it really isn't different but somehow it kind of is. I love the glow of home, some call it smog.

Volleyball, has become a passion of mine. Because with my work out shoes on I am easily 6 feet I tend to be a little more natural at playing. Who knows.. I could even possibly be good at volleyball.

I am jealous and impatient and talk a lot and have a hard time trusting people with my heart and have a truly difficult time letting go.

I am working on it.

French is hard. I guess not just for me. It may be too late to see the change of the BYUI's language programming. But I really should practice more.

Did I mention I am in love with CA?

Because I am.

Food for Fast

Life is hectic.

Life is pure.

Life is love.

Life is the cure.

Guidance is needed.

Guidance be

life is crazy. fasting is amazing. kylie will be happy.

the end

My Birthday...

SO my birthday tomorrow should be fun.. right?

well maybe not.

So here is my itinerary:

wake up, go for a run in my new awesome sneaks, meet up with Jessica to try and get into HSM through TADW, SANTA MONICA with Lauren meeting Lindsay and Chelsea there, dinner at the pier, hang till...? then home.

It actually should be fun and semi decent but it could be totally better.. I miss those good ol'days where boys were flauking whenever my girls and I got together and hung in the world! Wow I sound lame.

oh well hopefully  it will be better than expected..

I am printing a map of Santa Monica Pier and surrounding areas now.

When One Door Closes...

Who knew saying "goodbye" would be soo hard?

Maybe that is because it is "goodbye" and not "see you next week" or "talk to you later".

I love my friends but having to make new ones all the time is exhausting. I miss being able to spend whatever time I want with friends. However this world is a weird one. And just when one thinks that their supposed "friends" no longer care, an older one calls, or another lets them know that he cares. So I guess saying "goodbye" isn't really hard as much as it is necessary.  So I guess I am finally saying goodbye and accepting that I have to be where I am to grow. 

So bring it on.

I know who I am, I am glad I do.