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What is wrong? Why do we give so much for little in return?

I recently was texting a boy, whom I once had a relationship with and had been way serious, at the time of this digital conversation I was under the impression that we were just as serious if not more and was in something that would appear as a long distance relationship without any official titles. 

When I replied to a statement of his and questioned his affirmation he gave an answer to half the statement.  When I later questioned the other part of why life is just kind of ok, he responded that the other part was the reason, so I responded, simply, with “Oh I thought maybe it might be ‘cause the kylie thing.”  Setting up the perfect situation for him to shine and say something completely sweet that would have swept me off my feet and fill that loneliness that comes from being far, far away from someone you love, from your best friend.  However to my heartbreak he replied, eloquently, with “Haha. No.” Slapped across the face, I respond.  After a half hour later and a few more texts to him left unreplied I send, “Okkkk well.. Do you feel ok?” Only to be torn again with, “Yeah. Texting is just annoying.”  Honestly, did that just happen?  I write back.  There is no need for me to say what I said. 

But, how did that just happen?  It was him to suggest that we text in the first place because he didn’t want to speak to me over the phone and because it was easier to text while doing homework.  The worst thing about this situation is, I am still hurt.  It hurts so much that I was just like slapped across the face by someone I thought loved me the way I loved him.  And on top of that, I don’t think he even knows or cares that this event caused this affect on me. 

I love how one can feel so strongly about another without the other feeling the same.  When is love ever equal?

Whoever said, “All you need is love,” was wrong.  All you need is to find someone who loves you with that same intensity and the same desire that you love them at the same time.

Apparently, I am the one who has been left falling on blind eyes or deaf ears or whatever, but I am unseen...

            once again.

 

Sincerely,

Girl with a broken heart and tear stained face.